First time

One of my dreams is to travel, just to experience  other cultures  and I guess to find out where I belong . Well on June 24th,  I travel for the first time by myself to the wonderful  country Canada. From getting on the plane and entering the country until the day I had departure was an experience. 
The plane ride was appropriately  6 hours. During that time , I was able to reflect and enjoy the wonderful  and fluffy clouds  in the sky just to pass the time. I think what I like most about flying you get to see the beautiful  sunset and also the country at night when the lights are on. It look so pretty. 

While in Canada, it was like a new world.  What I’m used to was so completely  different.  The weather was different,  when I was there although  it was summer.  The temperature  was a range of 13 degree Celsius  to 27 degree Celsius.  Therefore, I was constantly  wearing a jacket but eventually  my body get accustomed  to the temperature  that I didn’t always had to wear a jacket.  

Driving on the right side of the road, it was so scary  since I’m accustomed  to driving on the left side of the road.  The roads are wider and there are various speed limits on one road. The distance in getting to point A to B is much longer than I’m accustomed  to , that I slept on most of the drives lol.   The transportation  was very reliable,  the bus came on time and what had me surprised  is the people line up in a single file to board the bus. And if you’re catching more than one bus or train you ask for a transfer ticket which eliminates  you from paying again at the next destination.  Going on the train and street car was another first for me. 

The people is so warm and friendly,  I assume since Canada is a diverse  culture . The people are willing to learn where  you  came from . Them love to have a conversation  and make you feel welcome to there country.  You just feel the love. One thing I notice that these people love there animals especially  dogs and cats. But what shock me the most was people bring there dogs to the mall  like really . It was a surprise  to me but also I realized  that dogs be quiet and well behave . So for  me there  was no dancing around trying to get out of the dog way lol. Yup I hate dogs lol.  And also these people carry them dog’s for a walk no matter what time of day it is. In fact ,the treat them dog as a human you will think that dog’s  have more right than a human being  lol.

One of best memory is going to Montreal,  when you enter the island of Montreal  you convince it an other island you visiting . The atmosphere  is so different  compare to   Ontario.  In Montreal  the people are billingual therefore, there speak  both French and English.  But I realize them prefer to speak  French.  When I was in high school I study French for six years.  I was always wondering why I was learning this subject for but it came into used for the two days I was there. But I learn something,  speaking French push me out of my comfort zone and I prefer to read it than to speak  it. But it was a good experience. 

In conclusion,  Canada didn’t disappoint me. I had learn so much about myself,  the culture,  food, places of interest  you name. But most of all I had enjoy my stay and the experience  that came along with it. 



For the first time in three and half years i was happy, since the passing of my mom death. It was only for three weeks but I felt like I was living again. I never had a negative  taught tha I could think of.  Those three weeks took me back to my younger year , where I was happy and  just didn’t care about the world.  I just want to try news things although  i was scarce,  you name it. I just felt myself  no lie. When i look at my life , the cost of my happiness is the environment  that i’m in and the reminder of my mom. I just need a new breath of fresh air, where I can just start over  and be happy 

Thinking out loud

This year taugh me alot. It taught me who was actually there for me or who was with me . I now see why people say becareful who you become friends with. Your closest friends can becomes your enemy.To me I felt bad cause I don’t see them as friends , I saw them as family since my mom as pass away. But I guess I was wrong but then one thing I learned, things happens for a reason. In life we always try to force certain things but when we let God take control of our life , the right friends, relationships , jobs and other stuff would come into place. Your mind be at peace and you start to see wonderful stuff start to happen.


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What is a friend?  I guess most people ask this question.  At some point of our lives we where betrayal by a friend who we trust.                    Earlier this week, I was surprised by a friend who stand up for me. Really I was so surprised what my friend said I could not believe it. I always say the person was different but  I guess the person prove me right.  The thing the person said  about me I was so surprised caused I never heard someone talk so highly and positive about me when someone had another point of view about me. It show me that I have at least one friend that I can depends on no matter what. 


On  May 15th , 2015,  I decided to take a bus ride to the northern side of the country .  It was a wonderful feeling to see something different for a while since I lived on the central side of the island.  The ride was a long ride. I had gotten on the bus at around 1.20 pm and didn’t get off the bus untilled 3.30 pm. The bus ride wasn’t bad but it was long . I even felt a sleep and wake up  and was still on the northern side of the island .  Part of the northern side of the island is a scenic place but as you go further in,  it not as scenic  as the east coast side of side of the island . In all, I  didn’t mine that the drive was long. It was relaxing and it was  nice to get out the house for once just to see this beautiful island that I live on

I miss my mom

I hate weekends , it the two hardest days of the whole week. You see the house be so quiet , it just feel lonely without her. You could hear a pin drop. I missed her laughter, yes my mom always laughing no matter what she be laughing, her theory was there someone out there that can’t laugh tonight because they fighting for life or not be able to wake up in the morning. I guess this is where I got my laughing from although I don’t know the last day I had a real laugh.The way she tell her stories ” Girl I have classic for ya ” smh. I mean my mom always have a story to tell sometimes I wonder, where does she get them from but them be funny. My mom was a people person don’t mind she only had one childhood or close friend but still she make time for other people especially as she call them her oversea people from high school. I miss coming home of hearing my mom voice asking me how was my day at school ? How was the test? or just some day just bitching about what went on during day, and yup I had to much of those day and still to do . I wilL just talk until my mom would okay now stop talking that enough for night. it used to make me feel better now it just big void, people always ask why you always tired? That because I be up doing work at 1 or 2 in the morning,I feel better doing it around that time than around 8 to 2. it  just remind me of my mom , she was like my study partner.

My mom was my greatest motivator, she the one that encourage me no matter how hard it is. Her dream was to see that I make something of myself because of the rough upbringing she had. Most of my schooling my mom was there for me the failures and the success , she saw it all but  my mom make it so easy , she always say I am so hard to figure out lol but i guess as she come to end of her life she had figure me out. What keep me good was my last conversation with my mom, knowing me , my mom know I am a hard person to get through and very competitive person and I guess she saw that I giving up on my dream I had since was 7, that is the graduate university and my other dream which I had found around the age 16 is to be a medical / computer scientist  , well medical scientist won over computer scientist. Most days when  it hard I always remember my last conversation my mom said to me “stay in university, be focus , get my grades up , don’t worry about fees and finish university”. Although my mom not here it will be a honor to finish university , the degree had start out as ours but it end up as mine but it still your mom. The bachelors  will always be your while the masters will be mine.

Another thing I miss about my mom is putting herself before others, I always taught my mom was doctor, nurse, social worker or something of that sort. She was always helping someone , I remember asking her,  mom you always helping others but no one does help you or us? Her reply was don’t worry about that god would bless us. Although she always helping someone, she always find time to lime or relax or whatever you call it. To tell you the truth I admired people who find time to relax because for me that a no-no. My mom was trying for years to get me relax and up to this day the word relax is not in dictionary lol.

I miss my mom , no matter it over a year . It never get easier, we had dreams, hopes and aspirations….. the list could go on .