My first love

Did you had feeling or in love with someone but scare to say anything? 

Do you ever wonder you going be one of those people who going be old and thinking whats if?

Do you just sit down and randomly think ,about the person and hope them doing ok?

Do you wonder if you make the right choice?

Well this is me.  On 22nd August…..I had feelings for someone but I was scare of saying anything.  I just taught my feeling would subsides but it just grew …… I guess why I didn’t say anything because the caring person inside of me wonder what other people think of us and if I would be accepted into his circle. If I wasnt scare who knows….

Why I had feeling for him?

Over a period of times his personality is what attract me to him. He was caring , supportive,  love to laugh,can  carry on a great conversation but I think what really catch my eyes that he treat me with respect and he was not ashamed to around me. And I just felt comfortable around him. He just make me feel safe. Well of course eventually I love him for his look .

Sometimes I wonder if I made the correct choice of someone who saw me in my weakness and never judge me,  patient, always there for me… and the list goes on.

I know them say that there more fish inside of the sea. But no two fish is alike.  I remember reading in a book that said love make you do stupid things. I guess that’s me. Unfortunately I don’t think I would forget him. You never know one day…. Can you fall in love twice?


Memories

As I sit here looking at pictures, 

I wonder what happen? 

Where it all went wrong ?

one by one,

Sequentially,

Everyone leaves ,

just leaving you with pictures and memories.

Do not worry them say,

We got your back,

We all in this together no matter what.

Phone calls becomes less frequent. 

And conversation become shorter on social media. 

No hey, whats up or how was your day?

Sometimes you wonder if anyone cares.

But you’re ignore or get one answer reply,  

Like if you’re a bother.

Friends or family is with replace with youtube to make you laugh, 

Strangers on Ig that make you feel welcome.

Radio to entertain you with current affairs,

Facebook to keep you uptodate.

you try to make new friends but everyone have a circle!

No new friends them said.

So you just sit down on the outside looking in,

and realized life is not the same,

people change and people go on with life,

Although you wish everything will remains the same.

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Journey of the Seasons

Spring is the beautiful birds that bring that wonderful sound to your ears,

Summer is the warm sun which kiss your face daily,

Fall is the wonderful trees that change into various wonderful colors

Winter is the cold days that turn into night.

For  two years and half year ,

I see and hear the various transformation of the four seasons.

It is a wonderful experience to enjoyed .

It bring excitement and  wonder what each season does bring each year.

Nature is an interesting phenomenon

It  can taugh us lessons

It can taugh us no distance is far enough

It can bring people together from far and near

But most of all it can be surreal.

Thank for bringing me  on the journey of the four various season

Mistakes

Sometimes I just wonder if I be so hard on myself? Most of the time I feel so lost . I always ask myself what is fun? Would I ever get to truly enjoy life? To me I just feel like a prisoner but just have more freedom. Everyday I know what going happen. In life you have dreams and goals . You do everything in your power just to make it until one mistake. To me when I look at it, it was carelessness from my side. Like how can I lost focus after it took me so long to get where I want to be. How can I let external forces interfere?

Caring

Do you ever  get negative vibes of a person?  That you just know that the person is up to no good. You could practically read the person body language so you warn the other person about the person intension but them say “oh give the person a chance”. Really , maybe I’m too harsh but why work so hard to let someone drag you down with them? I try tallking to the person but it fall on deaf ears. Then I’m the one that have to listen to they rant……… I just wish the person would listen seriously. I guess I’m too caring and observance . Life is about learning the hard way I guess

Thinking out loud

This year taugh me alot. It taught me who was actually there for me or who was with me . I now see why people say becareful who you become friends with. Your closest friends can becomes your enemy.To me I felt bad cause I don’t see them as friends , I saw them as family since my mom as pass away. But I guess I was wrong but then one thing I learned, things happens for a reason. In life we always try to force certain things but when we let God take control of our life , the right friends, relationships , jobs and other stuff would come into place. Your mind be at peace and you start to see wonderful stuff start to happen.

Update

Hey guys,I’m back!!!
I would try to update the site more often mainly with poems, shorts stories and motivational videos and quotes. At the moment, I’m working on my other account name http://www.crazychemist868.wordpress.com which is mainly science blog. If any of you all interest you can follow me on there also. I just stop by to give you all and update and I didn’t abandon this page.
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